This is probably one of the questions we all ask often, or at least a few times in our lives. Am I worth it?
Am I worth being loved? Am I worth that house/ car/ job/ opportunity/ life? Am I worth that person who I love and would like to live with? Am I worth to be alive in this planet? and a million other things. I am not educated enough/ earning enough/ beautiful enough/ lucky enough/ charming enough/ successful enough/ talented enough.. etc for something…
Do I Deserve?
I myself, have had this question in my mind a few hundred times may be. Until such a time when I realized, I am worth everything that is here on this planet – All of the beautiful things. That’s when I was awakened spiritually. I realized that my ego – which is supposed to be logical, rational, intelligent etc because it can analyze and compare and do all that to tell what is right or wrong in life – has always doubted if I deserve something.
However, my soul, which is nothing but pure light and love, and flows from my heart like an ocean or universe of love, tells me I deserve everything beautiful and wonderful.
Though this a global thing, in countries like India (where there are a million conditions in the name of culture), every male child and female child is taught about being worthy. Being worthy of someone’s daughter or son (your parents sacrificed their life for you), of a family (respectable family is the notion), of education (you are given a prestigious education), of a wedlock (again lucky that someone has agreed to have you in their family), of progeny (lucky you conceived and delivered or you impregnated – its the greatest qualification to have been in a relationship) – this list is endless.
And the masculine is tormented throughout their life – the scale of their worthiness is most importantly derived from their career success – how well they earn, what car they drive, how many houses/ cars they own, how well they have invested their finances (look at some of the bank advertisements – ‘Sar Utake jiyo’),
And feminine, previously were measured based on how they are able to reproduce/ cook/ take care of family etc and now a career is also added to their laundry list of things to be accomplished.
Well, the bottom line is, how worthy you are is dependent on how well/ how much you have ‘deliver’ to the near and dear and the outside world.
Seriously, is that it? Is that what life all about? Are we just tailor-made for our deliverables?
As we are fulfilled from within, as we feel complete from within, as we completely accept the individual that we are, the wonder and beauty of what we are, the love and light and the darkness and ugly (well, what is light and darkness, ugly is another discussion) that we carry in our story and ourselves, when we are absolutely delighted about our bad things as much as our good things, as we adore ourselves as a wonder of the divine present in this body and soul – we are fulfilled with love.
Love that is originating and flowing and overflowing from our heart chakra. Joy, freedom, expansion from the heart. Then every moment is just pure joy – at least most of the time. Then in that freedom, we follow our passion and do something that is beautiful and good for ourselves and the world around us, and that fetches abundance to us. Now we can still live an abundant live – but we are now fulfilled, not deprived in the core of ourselves.
We know that we deserve everything wonderful and beautiful in this world, the assets of this world is common property to each and every species living here. Therefore, we take abundantly, with love for ourselves and everything around us. Yet, we ensure we practice caution that we do not over-consume. We are delighted to share everything with every one, responsibly.
We know that everyone of us deserves every possible abundance in this world. Not because of your education/ earnings/ networth/ family or partner etc. Just because you are a wonderful divine essence born on this planet. Just because you are love manifest in a physical body. That’s about the only qualification to deserve your own love. Love yourself. You are worth it.